done with midterms

i do not really know what to write. i just want to. my midterm week is over. Yahoo!! that is something to write about, i guess.

it was not good. i do not think i performed well. despite my office leave the whole week. sigh. belatedly i realized cramming to study everything the week before the exam day, or worse, the night before it will not work. not now. not anymore. but i cannot do anything about it anymore. sleepless nights no longer a defense. they even made me feel a lot sadder knowing i exerted that much effort without getting the result that i want.

the good part of the whole exam period, as i told my friends is that of the night after the last exam. nothing but a restful one. indeed! although negative thoughts of failing haunt, the sleep is a lot better than one done with the head on the study table for 10 minutes, or taking an hour nap on the floor just so as to be able to wake up when you have to. hayy.. just a relief it is over. and i am crossing my fingers i only have 7 months inclusive of 3 exam periods left for this. it will be over. and i am optimistic of an end, paving the way to a fresh start.

the exam week was not really that bad. you get to appreciate even the smallest thoughts when you’re pressured. i got to realize na pwede pala talaga ako tablan ng sakit. sigh. i was sick and still am the whole exam period. while cramming and browsing final notes, my cough just bothers me. grr.. but as ive said, the pressure and the ill feeling just made me appreciate things: my friends trying to help out whenever i almost cough my lungs out, friends and argyle’s thought to wish i get well soon, my mom’s checking me out once in a while, food brought for me, dinner at jollibee after exams and most especially, less of the “moments”. hahaha! i do not remember when was the last time i was sick. i cant remember when i last caught colds, cough or even fever. hehehe! so that i guess added factor to me being more appreciative. kahit na napahiya ako during civil law review II exam, ok na yun. pero bad trip! involved ang two civ 2 classes at wills class ni uribe sa embarrassing moment na ito. oh well.

after the week long exam, it felt so good to pause a while. we went to pink sisters convent tagaytay yesterday for the early morning mass. buti na lang holiday. napaisip pa ako kung may pasok dahil sa text ni justy. i really wanted to leave a note for sis. maria. she heard me and was there to comfort me during the “surrender” last september 27, 2007. but i did not. i still have to collect my thoughts and know, really, what i must tell her, what really is going on. probably on the same date this year.

something sad is about to happen… to my friend, thus, to us. we just have to be strong for them. they can do it. i am keeping my faith in them. i guess, this is where we are bound to keep it despite an imminent end. it may not even be. who can say? this is when words must end and when we just have to let nature take its course. i have said my piece, rested my case. decision must happen. in the movie ratatouille, “change is nature.” maybe, that is what must be learned in order to resolve things, or to overcome what is disheartening. i hope you are listening. i hope i am listening.