midterm week, no moment week

it is midterm week. i have actually been waiting for this to come, as well to end because it would mean nearing the ATTYs. getting there, anyway.

first exam. REMEDIAL LAW REVIEW 2. hay. i had trembles from head to foot before going to school ten minutes before 1pm. i know i have already prayed hard, nothing that i can do anymore. then the exam, sometime past 1. sigh. too sad i was just staring at the questionnaire for almost an hour. maybe it was easy for some. maybe it was ok for the others. it is not for me. i dont know if i should blame myself but who else should i? i cannot blame dean jara for it, the questions were good and practical, something that can help in the practice. and i was a jara baby. why didnt i see this coming? bahala na si batman. sana sapat ang panahon ko. pero hindi. ewan ko na.

it didnt end there. just when i thought helplessness overshadowed me… then came hopelessness along menlo st. (donada). again, THE INCOMPATIBLE WORLDS. heads down. if only a smile or even a nod, the midterm exam would not have mattered. i know i can still make it in the finals. i know i have a hand on it still by then. but with you, it seems hopeless. thus, a smile or a nod would have made it ok. but heads down. sigh.

i ended the day going to the supermarket with earl and zeena. we watched hellboy II and ate our long awaited pizza hut plus macaroni and cheese. comfort foods and the best friends. I NEVER WAS HELPLESS! and it will happen. soon. i know. and i keep my faith.

by the way, i had this woah conversation with earl.

gene: asus, dude! para namang ndi mo ko kilala. ndi uso sakin ang time-time.

 

earl: yun nga, dude, e. baka kelangan mo lang matuto maghintay. time heals wounds nga di ba?

 

gene: hay naku. ndi talaga. time doesn’t but wounds will eventually get healed, for sure. kaya sige na, ilakad mo na ‘ko, ilakad mo na tayo. baka ok na.

 

earl: dude, basta. maghintay ka lang. though time does not heal the wounds, it is for sure CARVING YOU TO THE PERSON THAT YOU HAVE TO BE WHEN YOU FINALLY MEET HIM AGAIN.

that’s it. wala na akong laban ‘don. haha! thanks, dude!