things have their own way of sorting out

i was not well at the beginning of the week. wide awake at 3 o’clock in the morning. woke up at 6am. with my first day. cramming for commercial law review class (turned out Dean Sundiang was absent).

most especially, my mom was pressuring me about setting her up to an interview for her US visa application. plus workload in the office. what made it unbearable is her making me feel that i am not doing anything for her so she’d rather ask the help of our neighbors. if she only knew what i have gone through.

but my new angel Theeza told me: “don’t worry, gene. things have their very own way of sorting out. If it seems that you can’t handle them, just leave them alone.”

hahaha! *hug*

however, dear, there are things we cannot just leave alone. the price we have to pay is seeing the people we would like to serve, hurt. i cannot bear that. i cannot bear my mom’s self-pity lines. i cannot bear to see her not getting any help from me. i cannot be tagged “irresponsible” just because i am tired and thus, better not to move. i knew i have to do something.

but, you’re right. things have their own way of working out. for some MIGHTY and DIVINE Power, they do. thank YOU.

i had my mom scheduled for an interview. i finished my sister’s invitations and thank you cards. i am half-way my criminal law review notes. i am eyeing on finishing Commercial Law Review backlogs. things are starting to be well. they have to. it is going to be my midterm week in four days. i have to catch up.

i ended up last night (or should i say this morning. i slept at 4:30 in the morning. i hope it was just caffeine) with this realization:

Most of the time, we will have to learn to live alone… apart from all the things we got so used of.

why i said that? i do not like to dwell.

i am just happy things are startign to be well, things are sorting out.