haay… we cannot really please everybody

sad that we cannot really please everybody. what is even worse is if pleasing them contradicts what is for us…

im just sad i have hurt my mama..

was i jaded or in touch with reality?

i was talking to friends over our own choices of what may make us a bit tipsy, at least. we were actually discussing on a friend’s dilemma of whether to stay into something and keep on doing what he normally does or to go with the flow in the name of “self-preservation”. i gave my point of view on the matter, again, in a very assertive tone as i normally do whenever i raise an argument. then one of my friends said, “or maybe you’re just jaded?” oops… san galing ‘yun? ako, jaded lang?

that made me think? when i say that when two people are together, there will be a time when the other has to go on the road even with the other left behind a bit. one has to go on the road for a while, discover what he or she has, then eventually realize that it is a lot better having to trudge the whole path with the other. if the view is otherwise, then everyone, when they reach that point of wanting to go a bit faster without totally getting the other out of the picture, should just part. it is not black and white. there has to be a gray area somewhere. on that note, am i just jaded? or was i just objective?

i just believe, after all that i have realized, my own pain, among others, there will come a time that one has to stand up for the other for a while for an ultimate end. the real issue is being able to sacrifice. maybe about sacrificing for the other for a while in order to allow that other person to grow on her or his own. eventually, if one has FAITH that the other lives up to the promise of keeping you, then what is there to doubt? if it is not how your faith tells you, sad but there we will have to grieve and then move on.

i had my share. maybe not exactly as that of my friend’s but if it was that exactly, if i can bring back the time, i would have done how i thought it should be. realizations, resolutions and regrets. i would have beg that i will just wait for his time, for a growth he wanted, for a time he can think that it was just that. i don’t know… as i write this part of the blog, i begin to think, was i just the one thinking it was how i thought of it? again, i don’t know. one thing for sure, i know i will to stick to it. i know i will keep my ground. i know i would have stood up, after he has allowed my beg… because of an ultimate goal… a dreamt end… keeping him in whatever way possible.

but things are different now, because of my own doings. sigh.

unable to stop what is bound

when something is meant to happen, there is really nothing that we can do to stop it. when it is destined, it will happen still beyond our control. despite reasons, noble motives, there will be a far GREATER POWER that pilots it to where things should really be.

let the best DIRECTOR and skilled DRIVER lead the way. it can never go wrong.